Vacancy

Anytime someone leaves

I get the wind hammered out of me

Weeping, clutching, barely breathing

I fall to my knees

What happened this time?

What went wrong?

Was it because you had to wait too long?

Whatever it is, I’ve been doing it wrong for far too long!

I don’t get many answers to my questions

I don’t get much time to even mention

That I have a great task heading my direction

Trying to explain to a 5 year old the cause of your evaporation

What do I say to her to try to explain

That mommy will cry but will soon be good again

How do I tell her that you weren’t enough

Not loving, patient nor emotionally buff

Gosh it’s all we’ve ever known

Being left behind like an empty throne

A kingdom with no king, left confused and alone

We ponder, analyze, and wait by the phone

Will he call? Will he write?

Will he come around tonight?

No, so I guess the vacancy still stands

Wanted: a loving husband and devoted dad

© Kathya J. Castañeda